Full-Blown Pain: My Battle With the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It began on a dreary Monday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a educator, trying to settle a new class, when a intense pain bloomed behind my one eye. This was followed by quick stabs, like electric shocks. As each class came and went, the discomfort subsided and then came back with greater intensity. Multiple times that day I left a teaching assistant with activities and ran to the school bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I took aspirin, but the agony remained unbearable.

The headaches returned frequently that autumn, and once more in spring, soon forming an annual pattern. September and October were the most severe, then February and March. I could anticipate the routine: aura in the morning, early pangs on the commute, full-on pain in the classroom by mid-morning. In late 2019, a doctor eventually sent me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.

This condition typically start with severe discomfort behind one eye that persists for several hours.

About one in 1,000 individuals suffer by the disorder, and males are more often affected. Attacks usually start with abrupt, excruciating agony focused on one eye that reaches its peak within a short time and lasts for as long as three hours. Attacks come in clusters, daily or several times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or face sweating. There exists the episodic form, which occurs in seasonal bouts; some patients have continuous attacks, defined by the lack of extended pain-free periods.

What unites sufferers is the severity. One study rated the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than bone fractures or pancreatitis. A separate discovered a significant percentage of cluster headache patients experienced thoughts of self-harm amid attacks; the figure fell to 4% when they were pain-free.

One patient, in her seventies, a chronic sufferer from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her attacks began when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the ground and bang my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition worsened through childhood. Alcohol in her teens, similar to many causes, made things more intense. After drinking sherry at her graduation party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often interpreted her attacks as drunken episodes. Understanding finally came from her father and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after moving, but often concealed her condition. She was fired from one job, partly due to absences during attacks. Her definitive identification came in the early 2000s at a national neurology center.

Still, the inability to plan daily activities around erratic attacks took its toll. She particularly disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her children during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the simple liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been described across the ages. “The earliest description of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write authors in a publication on the topic. They linked the disease to an evil entity who attacked his victims' heads.

Historical medical records propose bizarre treatments for what modern observers would classify as a migraine. In the middle ages, severe headache was recognised as a separate disorder, with therapies ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a European doctor who provided the first detailed description of a cluster headache. In his writings, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache happening and vanishing daily at fixed hours”.

The disorder were only formally classified by international medical societies in 1988. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a major blood vessel which delivers blood to the brain. Leading experts in diagnosing the condition note this.

In the late 1990s, scientists released the findings of a research project for which they had induced attacks in patients and monitored the episodes in a brain scanner. The data, published in a major journal, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they felt better.

In spite of such advances, diagnosis remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's attacks began in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he had four surgeries before finally being diagnosed in 2014, after a physician researched his symptoms.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosing and managing occur because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're tired and depressed, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He proceeds by eliminating other primary headache disorders, such as migraine, before confirming the disorder. A thorough history is essential: on which side do signs appear? For how much time? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Specific features such as redness, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help verify the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to dedicated centers. But many first go to A&E or are given inadequate therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has experienced the condition for the majority of her life, although she has been free from an episode since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth pulled because dental professionals misinterpreted her pain. She believes dentists still need greater awareness. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was she who replied. The author recalls calling a helpline during an bout in early 2021; a reassuring volunteer talked me through oxygen therapy and medication until the episode passed.

Official guidelines on management recommend that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine medication administered by nasal spray. No tablets or opioids should be used. Preventive options include a blood pressure medication, which apparently soothes the bouts of well-known people.

But leading neurologists argue the guidance need revising to reflect a clearer treatment process and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The duration of the bout determines the treatment.” Brief bouts with infrequent episodes are handled with acute therapy alone. Longer or more intense bouts require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an procedure into the side of the skull where the pain is that decreases nerve signals.

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Daniel Martinez
Daniel Martinez

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